So, quite clearly I’m terrible about writing for my processing. Partly because I’m lazy and mostly because, even though I created this space for me to process my life experiences, I’ve been avoiding that which does not spark joy in me. In hindsight, this was probably not the most thought-out strategy. At least that’s whatContinue reading “Outlaws and Outsiders”
Tag Archives: grief
I’m not sure if I should say this, fuck I’ll say it anyway
It’s been three weeks. I’m still struggling. I get so irrationally angry so quickly right now. I’m having what should be amazing experiences in my life and my career, that I can’t even celebrate because being happy when I’m still so sad is the most wicked torment I’ve experienced. Things I’ve been working toward forContinue reading “I’m not sure if I should say this, fuck I’ll say it anyway”
All You Get to Keep is All You Shared
It’s been two weeks and I just want this fucking ride to stop. The speed with which I flit from emotion to emotion is exhaustingly excessive. Add my natural-born ADHD, and I can’t calm my mind long enough to process jack shit. Music helps to keep everything from exploding, but I can’t think it through.Continue reading “All You Get to Keep is All You Shared”
In Memoriam
It’s been 5 days. On Monday we went to the funeral home. As expected, I deployed my defenses – inappropriate comments and dark humor. The funeral home person was trying to help with starting an obituary. She said sometimes it’s easier for families if they answer some standard questions and build a draft obit. ThisContinue reading “In Memoriam”
For Whom the Bell Tolls
Last night at 10:40 PM, my sister’s decades-long war with severe alcoholism has ended. The disease ravaged her viciously and completely and has left a trail of broken hearts in its wake. She’s finally at peace and we have to figure out how to carry on. #FuckAddiction
Alcoholism & Addiction Can F*ck Off
First and foremost, please be advised that this post could be a trigger for anyone dealing with alcoholism, addiction, loss, grief, end if life care, and death. Do not allow morbid curiosity to place you in a space where you’re harming yourself. You can always come back and learn later. Take care of yourself. Also,Continue reading “Alcoholism & Addiction Can F*ck Off”
Why is Life Like That, Why am I Like That? 